Accepted

Although I have no regrets It's not been a great year, I've spent alot of my time feeling pretty down and taking bach flower rescue remedy to help me get through the day sometimes. This is no way to live so luckily I have some super people in my life who really remind me of who I am.

I was talking to a friend about Vanity and it reminded me of when I was younger, I would spend quite alot of time pulling faces at myself in my parents mirrored wardrobe doors. My sister would always say I was vain and that I loved myself however I dont think this was necessarily true at that age.
I think what I was actually doing was getting to know who I was. I would sit there and stare at myself and I would repeat in my head things like "Hannah Ruth Mutters,this is who you are, you are always going to be you and you cant be anyone else" I used to want to look like a girl in my class, because she had straighter hair than me, but I wanted to keep my own personality because I enjoyed being me! haha this sounds so funny! When I started to get scared of my own reflection and the reality of "this is me" i'd go off and do something else! I told this story to my friend and her response was "thats cool you were searching for your identity so young, maybe thats why you feel you know yourself" and I think she is right.

I think this year I just got a little bit lost, and with the help of some wonderful individuals I remembered who I was and I accept it.

Acceptance is so important, Im sure lots of people feel like they arent accepted by other people but how many of us accept ourselves?
Ive recently come across this website called positively positive www.positivelypositive.com  I am known for having a winge so if I feel extra wingey or like I need a moan this website is great for making me feel more uplifted and positive.

Yesterday I read an article about Acceptance and it included the following tips so I thought i'd share them with you.

- Develop a connection to spirit
(I dont think they mean "spirits" I think they mean your own spirit and the spirit of people around you, or maybe even the christmas spirit? Just being silly!)

- Allow for quiet time (shhhh)
(I love doing this, a bit of time with your thoughts and a bit of relaxation, I have a few friends in my life who I can sit in a room with and not say anything to, and its so comfortable and I love it. People who talk all the time, take no time to listen to themselves or others, just be quiet and enjoy it)

- Forgive (Yourself and that Jerk)
(Im sure this is an american site!! I do think that forgiveness helps you stay more positive though, and is definitely a way of accepting that whatever has happened is now over and you shouldnt dwell on it, move on and forgive - AGREED)

- Welcome (and tend to) loving friendships or relationships
(This one is a good one, I wrongly judged someone and tarnished them with the same brush as someone else recently, only to realise that when I let a few barriers down and stopped worrying about things, I had miss-judged and decided to allow myself to just be happy, accept the compliments this person gives me and not sceptical)

- Release un-lovingfriendships or relationships (buh bye)
(This one doesnt necessarily apply to me as I dont have anyone in my life that I feel I need to cut off or get rid of at this very moment, theres a few on the edge though! Just kidding)

- Lay in the sun
(ahh I love this one, at around 2:30/3pm everyday the sun comes through my window at work and It cheers me up no end - get some vitamin D in your life!)

- Move your glorious body
(I think they mean dance, so give us a twirl! Dance around the kitchen with someone you live with, use the fish slice as a microphone and laugh!)

-Eat plants (chomp chomp, yum)

- Breathe deeply often
(This is interesting to me, I sigh, alot, anyone who has spent alot of time with me will know this, I dont do it conciously but I have recognised that I do it, Im assuming its a release of some sort)

- Smile
(I'm not a naturally smiley person, the corners of my mouth point downwards to people usually assume im just grumpy, which IS NOT TRUE! so sometimes I try to smile more, at random people, bus drivers, co-workers, my friends and family, its uplifting when you get one back!)

- REPEAT
(Yeh dont just do it once, do it over and over again!)
You may think this is a load of rubbish, but Im happy to give anything a go!
So, this year I have learned how to be more positive and accept myself, I think thats what Im trying to say!

I accept im an over thinker, I accept I need goals and I need to stick to them, I accept im a bit spoilt and can be really stroppy and irrational, I accept that I am really really silly to keep myself and others entertained, I accept that I have the most irritating and unruly head of hair, I accept that I am really horrible about the girl at work that I dont like because I dont like the fact she is so insecure she is fake and I accept that sometimes people wont like me either, I accept that I am not perfect and I accept that some people reading this will think i've gone a bit loopy!!

ACCEPT YOURSELF!